Overflowing the Glass

Okay, let's get it over with: I suck. I don't know how other people with illness, other people with cancer, balance their lives and keep all the plates spinning. I just know that I really, truly stink at it. The hardest thing is not having enough energy. I get through each day. I barely get through each day. The second-hardest thing is seeing that I'm "losing" more and more. I see there are things I no longer am able to do. Does this mean I'm losing? Maybe I just need a good nap. Or a trip to the Bahamas and a sunny beach. Is there somewhere I could get an organic slushy drink with an umbrella in it in the Bahamas? Note to self: check this out before booking flight to Bahamas. If necessary, change fantasy location.

If you have someone in your life who is ill, here's some advice: s/he needs support. That person needs love and compassion. It's hard enough to fight a major illness without having someone to watch your back. It can be the difference between willing to get up another day and not even trying, just knowing that there is somebody who truly cares. Sure, bringing meals or a funny movie can be a lifeline, but you know what's even better? Knowing that person so well that you're in tune with his/her needs and moods. It's hard to ask for help or for support, sometimes even we don't know what we want so how could we tell you? That's where having someone who knows you well helps. If you have a loved one who is ill, please keep this in mind.

So, I'll try not to suck too bad anymore. Yeah, there's illness and ickiness and misery and pity-potting going on here sometimes. Most of the time, not. There's a lot of joy going on here. And I am truly grateful for that.